Letter #11: Healing

Dear Future Husband,

Today I pray for healing for you; more specifically, healing for your spirit and soul. Often times I blame the world or society or fill-in-the-blank for all of the pain that I have gone through so far in my life. Although this is true that we live in a broken world full of broken people and it does cause pain, I forget that I have also caused myself pain. This is the direct result of me choosing the path that was never intended to be mine. I deliberately chose the path that provided temporary immediate satisfaction to my earthly body instead of choosing the path that is life-giving and will provide true and lasting satisfaction. I don't know if you have gone through many heartbreaks and heartaches in your life, but I sincerely hope and pray that if you have then you haven't let bitterness seep through to your core of your being. I am guilty of allowing this in my life and even now I need God's help in removing the root of bitterness from my heart that I have allowed to grow there. I have found that this root to be damaging towards relationships and I do not want that to be the case with ours. I cannot undo what has happened in my life but I can beg God for forgiveness, healing, and restoration. I want the same for you, so if you are struggling right now with a broken relationship or any other sort of pain that has happened in the past, I pray that God would begin the healing process in your soul! I want that freedom to be yours as well as mine!

As I was driving home tonight, God put on a glorious sunset and it gave me such hope, just seeing the beauty of it and just knowing that there is something pure and right in this world still. As I gazed at it I felt like God had put on an extra special display just for me to remind me that he is "El-Roi" or "The God who sees me".  He knows what I have been through and what will be and yet He takes the time to show me His unfailing love through the simplest of moments. I found comfort in knowing that He is good! I hope you find comfort in knowing that as well and that you find the healing that you need as we both wait for the time that God has seen fit for us to meet!

Forever and always faithfully yours,
Your Future Wife