Dear Future Husband,
Today was my cousin's wedding and I was flooded with a mix of emotions. One, I'm so happy for my cousin as he found a best friend to spend the rest of his life with. Two, I was sad that you weren't there to be my plus one (that sounds nice to have a plus one to invite to things) and meet some of my extended relatives. Three, it just made me think a lot about marriage in general and our wedding day.
But, honestly, the thing that stood out the most to me was how it made me think about friendship. And this is what I prayed for you today. That you know the importance of surrounding yourself with friends who are there for you and who know how to encourage you in your walk with God and who aren't afraid of calling you out when you are heading down the wrong path. We all need those people in our lives who will challenge us, make us better people, inspire us to pursue our dreams, encourage us when we need it the most, and make us laugh so hard we cry. I pray that you have such wise and caring mentors and friends in your life right now!
I pray that as you grow older you have also discovered how to be a good friend. That is just as important if not more so than having good friends. I want you to be my best friend and partner in crime! This is one of my biggest wishes and desires for you, my future husband. As we grow in maturity every day, I pray that God is preparing both of our hearts for the deepest of friendships with each other. I don't know how we will meet or if we like each other immediately or it will take some time for us to fall in love, but I know that whichever way it happens to be, we are going to need that foundation of friendship for our relationship to last through the fights and struggles that life throws at us. I'm going to be in this marriage for the long haul and I intend for us to be the cute old couples who still hold each other's hand on walks through the park when we are 80 and are more in love with each other than ever before. And I know that in order to get to that place God needs to be working in our hearts and minds to prepare us for the day we meet one another.
Forever and always faithfully yours,
Your Future Wife
Saturday, May 27, 2017
Wednesday, May 24, 2017
Letter #11: Healing
Dear Future Husband,
Today I pray for healing for you; more specifically, healing for your spirit and soul. Often times I blame the world or society or fill-in-the-blank for all of the pain that I have gone through so far in my life. Although this is true that we live in a broken world full of broken people and it does cause pain, I forget that I have also caused myself pain. This is the direct result of me choosing the path that was never intended to be mine. I deliberately chose the path that provided temporary immediate satisfaction to my earthly body instead of choosing the path that is life-giving and will provide true and lasting satisfaction. I don't know if you have gone through many heartbreaks and heartaches in your life, but I sincerely hope and pray that if you have then you haven't let bitterness seep through to your core of your being. I am guilty of allowing this in my life and even now I need God's help in removing the root of bitterness from my heart that I have allowed to grow there. I have found that this root to be damaging towards relationships and I do not want that to be the case with ours. I cannot undo what has happened in my life but I can beg God for forgiveness, healing, and restoration. I want the same for you, so if you are struggling right now with a broken relationship or any other sort of pain that has happened in the past, I pray that God would begin the healing process in your soul! I want that freedom to be yours as well as mine!
As I was driving home tonight, God put on a glorious sunset and it gave me such hope, just seeing the beauty of it and just knowing that there is something pure and right in this world still. As I gazed at it I felt like God had put on an extra special display just for me to remind me that he is "El-Roi" or "The God who sees me". He knows what I have been through and what will be and yet He takes the time to show me His unfailing love through the simplest of moments. I found comfort in knowing that He is good! I hope you find comfort in knowing that as well and that you find the healing that you need as we both wait for the time that God has seen fit for us to meet!
Forever and always faithfully yours,
Your Future Wife
Today I pray for healing for you; more specifically, healing for your spirit and soul. Often times I blame the world or society or fill-in-the-blank for all of the pain that I have gone through so far in my life. Although this is true that we live in a broken world full of broken people and it does cause pain, I forget that I have also caused myself pain. This is the direct result of me choosing the path that was never intended to be mine. I deliberately chose the path that provided temporary immediate satisfaction to my earthly body instead of choosing the path that is life-giving and will provide true and lasting satisfaction. I don't know if you have gone through many heartbreaks and heartaches in your life, but I sincerely hope and pray that if you have then you haven't let bitterness seep through to your core of your being. I am guilty of allowing this in my life and even now I need God's help in removing the root of bitterness from my heart that I have allowed to grow there. I have found that this root to be damaging towards relationships and I do not want that to be the case with ours. I cannot undo what has happened in my life but I can beg God for forgiveness, healing, and restoration. I want the same for you, so if you are struggling right now with a broken relationship or any other sort of pain that has happened in the past, I pray that God would begin the healing process in your soul! I want that freedom to be yours as well as mine!
As I was driving home tonight, God put on a glorious sunset and it gave me such hope, just seeing the beauty of it and just knowing that there is something pure and right in this world still. As I gazed at it I felt like God had put on an extra special display just for me to remind me that he is "El-Roi" or "The God who sees me". He knows what I have been through and what will be and yet He takes the time to show me His unfailing love through the simplest of moments. I found comfort in knowing that He is good! I hope you find comfort in knowing that as well and that you find the healing that you need as we both wait for the time that God has seen fit for us to meet!
Forever and always faithfully yours,
Your Future Wife
Tuesday, May 23, 2017
Letter #10: 40 days of prayer
Dear Future Husband,
While it's been a while since I last wrote you a letter, I've been wrestling with the overwhelming possibility of never being married. I had to come to grips with it because it was and still is a possibility. At first I was devastated and fought with God a lot over this because it was not in my plan for my life. That thought was not in my game plan or even been considered. After kicking, screaming, pouting and whining I finally realized what was wrong with this picture. It was me. I never thought and I had not considered. This was all according to me. And that was what needed to be changed. I needed to give up control and the absolute need to have a husband before God could use me at all or mold me into the woman after His own Heart. So after much wrestling with God about this issue (and I'll admit that I am still struggling with it) I finally gained a peace most of the time with it.
Then a couple of weeks ago I had a gentle nudge in my heart to start praying for you. I can't explain it. I tried to explain it away thinking that I was just on my period or that my cousin who is also my best friend was getting married and I was feeling left out yet again. So for a while I did nothing about it. But the feeling kept getting stronger. And I decided that I would do it: I would pray for you for 40 days, which started yesterday. I am also going to be praying for myself as well because I can honestly say that I need a lot of work before I can say that I am ready to be a wife. Just to clarify that I'm not expecting to meet you during these 40 days or even anytime soon after that. I don't envision that happening or think that 40 is some magic number that will cause you to appear because it won't. All I want to do is pray for you and me during this time.
My prayer for you today is that you are striving to become a more godly man. I pray that you are making godly decisions and always looking to God for every one of them. I am praying the same thing for myself as well today, that every decision I make will not only be honoring to God but also to you whoever you may be.
Forever and always faithfully yours,
Your Future Wife
While it's been a while since I last wrote you a letter, I've been wrestling with the overwhelming possibility of never being married. I had to come to grips with it because it was and still is a possibility. At first I was devastated and fought with God a lot over this because it was not in my plan for my life. That thought was not in my game plan or even been considered. After kicking, screaming, pouting and whining I finally realized what was wrong with this picture. It was me. I never thought and I had not considered. This was all according to me. And that was what needed to be changed. I needed to give up control and the absolute need to have a husband before God could use me at all or mold me into the woman after His own Heart. So after much wrestling with God about this issue (and I'll admit that I am still struggling with it) I finally gained a peace most of the time with it.
Then a couple of weeks ago I had a gentle nudge in my heart to start praying for you. I can't explain it. I tried to explain it away thinking that I was just on my period or that my cousin who is also my best friend was getting married and I was feeling left out yet again. So for a while I did nothing about it. But the feeling kept getting stronger. And I decided that I would do it: I would pray for you for 40 days, which started yesterday. I am also going to be praying for myself as well because I can honestly say that I need a lot of work before I can say that I am ready to be a wife. Just to clarify that I'm not expecting to meet you during these 40 days or even anytime soon after that. I don't envision that happening or think that 40 is some magic number that will cause you to appear because it won't. All I want to do is pray for you and me during this time.
My prayer for you today is that you are striving to become a more godly man. I pray that you are making godly decisions and always looking to God for every one of them. I am praying the same thing for myself as well today, that every decision I make will not only be honoring to God but also to you whoever you may be.
Forever and always faithfully yours,
Your Future Wife
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