Dear Future Husband,
It's been a while since I last wrote you a letter and figured that I would take the time to do so. I've been told that I may be a little bit obsessed with finding a future spouse so I had to take some time off to do some thinking about this. I've come to this conclusion: that while that is true that I would love to find you, sooner rather than later preferably, I don't think that it is a bad thing to dream and to keep those hopes and dreams alive. I do think that I do need to give this more over to God because I have realized that I was obsessed for a while and drove my friends crazy with constantly talking about it, but thankfully God has helped me move beyond that stage to where I am now, simply content waiting for you. I also came to another conclusion while thinking about this: I'm not sure if I am ready to be a wife yet. It scares the crap out of me to think of marrying a person and sticking with that person...forever! That word...*gulp*. To me, marriage is not something that I take lightly because when I say 'I do' I am in it for the long haul and divorce is not an option (unless something like physical, emotional, or mental abuse is involved or something else serious like that). However, I'm not sure if anyone can truly be prepared to be a wife or spouse because even if I read all the books on marriage ever written (believe me I have not even attempted), it still would not prepare me for being married to you specifically with all the things that make you completely you and pairing that with all the things that make me completely me. Those books could never prepare me for two imperfect individuals living together and going through life together. So until our paths cross, I'm going to keep on praying that God prepares both me and you for a life of marriage...together. I know I've got a lot of growing to do before then and I'm starting to realize how much.
Forever and always faithfully yours,
Your Future Wife
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