Dear Future Husband,
Do you ever feel like you become the worst version of yourself? There are moments that you hear yourself complaining or whining or gossiping and then you think to yourself 'what am I doing'? That you wish that you could retract that statement or snide comment that has just exposed the ugliness that you have tried to keep hidden within? But that darkness refuses to stay hidden. You always know that it is there and it's a constant struggle to make sure that the light is what others see and not the worst part of yourself. During these times it's like I am watching myself through a window and hearing the words coming from my mouth and wanting to yell "Stop!". How could I say such mean things like that about someone? How could I ever complain about the blessings that God has given me because I think things should be a certain way, more specifically my way? I know you know what I am talking about; it's the scenarios that you constantly replay in your head of how you would react differently or what you would say differently if that specific situation were to present itself again.
As I sit here in my living room contemplating one of these scenarios, I have been pondering the purpose behind all of these times. I have come to realize that it is during times of reflection like this that I start to realize how much I truly need God and His Forgiveness and Grace and Mercy to live out my daily life. If I don't have anything that I am struggling with like a temptation or a hard situation, it is so easy for me to believe that I am capable of living apart from God and that He is just a lifeline when I get into some trouble. I truly believe that these situations are designed to make us aware (once again) of our complete and utter need for a daily reliance on God.
Anyways all that to say, I am praying for you today that you are seeking God every single day and leaning on Him every step of the way. I hope that whatever you are currently going through you are turning to Him for all the strength that you need instead of your own. I pray that you think before you speak and only use your words to build others up and not tear them down. I pray that you would be a huge blessing to everyone you come into contact with every single day. And finally I pray your entire life would point others to God and glorify Him!
Forever and always faithfully yours,
Your Future Wife
Thursday, June 15, 2017
Thursday, June 8, 2017
Letter #14: Enlarging Our View of God
Dear Future Husband,
Lately, I've been thinking about God and how I am guilty of making Him into something that I can fathom and imagine. Something... more manageable and finite for my mind to be able to comprehend. But God was never meant to be understood or comprehended by our human minds. When we make Him into something smaller then we are neither giving Him the credit that He deserves nor acknowledging the power that He has.
So this week I've been praying for you and I that our current view of God would be expanded. I have even dared to pray "Lord, surprise us!" I am always scared to pray these kinds of prayers because God delights in answering them and revealing more of Himself to me. The thing is that they don't always come in a gentle way; they typically come to me as a big slap upside the head because, otherwise, I am usually too stubborn or too blind to see what God is trying to show me. But I felt the nudging of the Holy Spirit towards this particular prayer this week. So, rather reluctantly I must admit, I obeyed. I pray that He surprises you with the way in which He shows up in your life and that you would be constantly on the lookout for ways in which He is moving and revealing more of Himself to you. Also, I pray that both of us will be looking into God's Word for clues as to His character in order to find the correct view of God.
Forever and always faithfully yours,
Your Future Wife
Lately, I've been thinking about God and how I am guilty of making Him into something that I can fathom and imagine. Something... more manageable and finite for my mind to be able to comprehend. But God was never meant to be understood or comprehended by our human minds. When we make Him into something smaller then we are neither giving Him the credit that He deserves nor acknowledging the power that He has.
So this week I've been praying for you and I that our current view of God would be expanded. I have even dared to pray "Lord, surprise us!" I am always scared to pray these kinds of prayers because God delights in answering them and revealing more of Himself to me. The thing is that they don't always come in a gentle way; they typically come to me as a big slap upside the head because, otherwise, I am usually too stubborn or too blind to see what God is trying to show me. But I felt the nudging of the Holy Spirit towards this particular prayer this week. So, rather reluctantly I must admit, I obeyed. I pray that He surprises you with the way in which He shows up in your life and that you would be constantly on the lookout for ways in which He is moving and revealing more of Himself to you. Also, I pray that both of us will be looking into God's Word for clues as to His character in order to find the correct view of God.
Forever and always faithfully yours,
Your Future Wife
Friday, June 2, 2017
Letter #13: Sabbath rest and prayer
Dear Future Husband,
This whole week this has been on my mind repeatedly to pray for you that you know and experience Sabbath rest and also know the intimacy with God that comes from prayer. Sabbath rest is much more than simply taking a day off from work or just going to church on Sundays. It is allowing body, mind and most importantly soul to refocus on God and what is important. Rest...What a simple word and so often overlooked because we are too busy doing other good things that we forget that this isn't just a good idea or an afterthought, it is a part of the Ten Commandments. It obviously was so important to God that He commanded that we do it. He even modeled it for us after He got done creating the whole world. So why am I so guilty of neglecting to do it? I can't answer that question to be honest because all I see are pathetic excuses when I try. But I do know that because I neglect this practice of Sabbath rest then I am in this constant state of exhaustion that no amount of sleep can cure. So I've been praying for you and for myself all week that we would learn to take this commandment seriously and actually take a Sabbath rest weekly not just when it is "convenient" for us. And I pray that this habit that we are creating now will carry into our marriage.
I have also been praying this past week for your prayer life. As I have been doing this 40 day prayer challenge, I have discovered an intimacy that I always knew was missing from my relationship with God, but never knew exactly how to make that happen. I have urges now to spend time in prayer and get to know God better. It is incredible to me to have this kind of relationship with God or that it was possible. For so long I have talked to everyone else but God about my problems and now lately all I have been forced through different circumstances to talk directly to God first and not just as an afterthought. Oh I pray that you are experiencing this sweet, intimate connection with God through prayer! I desire for us to, individually first and then together, become prayer warriors. I see this in my parent's marriage and that's what I want for ours. Prayer changes things and I sincerely believe that.
Forever and always faithfully yours,
Your Future Wife
This whole week this has been on my mind repeatedly to pray for you that you know and experience Sabbath rest and also know the intimacy with God that comes from prayer. Sabbath rest is much more than simply taking a day off from work or just going to church on Sundays. It is allowing body, mind and most importantly soul to refocus on God and what is important. Rest...What a simple word and so often overlooked because we are too busy doing other good things that we forget that this isn't just a good idea or an afterthought, it is a part of the Ten Commandments. It obviously was so important to God that He commanded that we do it. He even modeled it for us after He got done creating the whole world. So why am I so guilty of neglecting to do it? I can't answer that question to be honest because all I see are pathetic excuses when I try. But I do know that because I neglect this practice of Sabbath rest then I am in this constant state of exhaustion that no amount of sleep can cure. So I've been praying for you and for myself all week that we would learn to take this commandment seriously and actually take a Sabbath rest weekly not just when it is "convenient" for us. And I pray that this habit that we are creating now will carry into our marriage.
I have also been praying this past week for your prayer life. As I have been doing this 40 day prayer challenge, I have discovered an intimacy that I always knew was missing from my relationship with God, but never knew exactly how to make that happen. I have urges now to spend time in prayer and get to know God better. It is incredible to me to have this kind of relationship with God or that it was possible. For so long I have talked to everyone else but God about my problems and now lately all I have been forced through different circumstances to talk directly to God first and not just as an afterthought. Oh I pray that you are experiencing this sweet, intimate connection with God through prayer! I desire for us to, individually first and then together, become prayer warriors. I see this in my parent's marriage and that's what I want for ours. Prayer changes things and I sincerely believe that.
Forever and always faithfully yours,
Your Future Wife
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