Dear Future Husband,
I'm ashamed to admit this, but you will find out eventually that I have gone on a few dating websites. While these dating websites have come with a great deal of boosting to my ego due to various compliments from the guys on there, they have also come with a great deal of disgust and discouragement. I hope you are too sensible to go on those sites and never have to deal with the constant degradation of the mind due to the fact that people are literally looking at you for your body like an outfit on a manikin trying to decide if you would be a good fit for a one night stand. Purity is not something to be treasured and it is something to be ridiculed and mocked on those sites. I have saved myself for you and it is the most precious gift I have to give you besides my heart and while I cannot say I haven't soiled it some due to my sinful nature I have tried my best to keep it for you, the one I hope to spend forever with. Why don't people (men and women) care about what is on the inside anymore? The people on those sites (I cannot say all because that would be unfair of me to say that because there are some really decent ones on there) aren't looking for a forever or care about what my personality is or what makes me laugh or what makes me cry. Times like these make me wish that I was ugly on the outside so I wouldn't be looked at for the beauty that is on the outside but for the beauty that is on the inside, which time won't diminish. And even if they do happen to care about the inside and who you are, they don't care about God. That is the one non-negotiable thing that you must have: a strong and alive relationship with God. Sure, I have fantasies about you being super good looking with gorgeous eyes and a smile that makes me melt into a puddle, but honestly I'd trade all of those in for a guy with a relationship with God. Those are few and far between and I am praying every day for your walk with God whether it is just beginning or a constant journey or maybe you haven't met God yet and if that is the case then I pray for the day that your eyes are opened to His Beauty and Love and Grace! Future Husband, my gift to you today is that I promise to never get on another dating website again because I am determined to keep myself pure for you! I also am praying for myself that I will be constantly reminded in my loneliness to turn to the only One who can satisfy my needs fully and completely!
Forever and always faithfully yours,
Your Future Wife
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